My Beautiful Big Gentle Zac

[zaclucy]

Hi

I have not been on here before, but I needed somewhere to write, where other people would understand my loss.

I lost my beautiful boy on Tuesday at 4pm. He had a cancer on the spleen diagnosed 9 weeks ago. We had his spleen removed, but were told the cancer could recur. After his op, the results from the biopsy were inconclusive, so we did not know if it had been malignant or not, and lived in the hope everything would be ok. This last 9 weeks he has been like a puppy again, full of life, and mischief! On Tuesday morning he was ill, and I knew it was not good. He was bleeding internally. The vet came, and Zac went to sleep in my arms. He was 8 years old, and he was my heart. I will miss him every waking hour, but I know he will be waiting at the rainbow bridge for me.

Zac I love you, I wish I could have done more, but there was nothing else to do.

Janet

[tazman]

Zaclucy I am so sorry for the loss off your Zac,he is now free from pain and happy with all the other doggies at rainbow bridge,you will always have your memories,I thought this would help you

http://www.gsdsrus.freeserve.co.uk/u...meetagain.html

[LOVEGSD]

Your story bought tears to my eyes Janet....I can only begin to imagine just how awful it is to lose your beautiful boy. At least you know he is now pain free and running with all the other doggies at rainbow bridge as Kathy said.

I don't always think people understand just what a big part of our lives our GSD's are and that they are such a major part of our families and that you feel their loss as you would any other family member. I am still quite new to this site but I can honestly say there are some great people on here, who will support you through this so I hope you will feel free to talk openly about how your feeling and if we can help then that's good....

[GSDOWNER]

I agree with LoveGSD, when you lose a GSD dog you feel you have lost your child, people do not understand the bond that you have.

I wish I could say more but it was really upsetting to read and I actually feel your pain.

[zaclucy]

Hi

Thank you so much. I had to find something to do with myself, and I stumbled upon this forum. I thought it would help to talk with other people who would understand. I am empty inside at the moment, and our other dog Lucy, who is a little mongrel Lab cross with who knows what, is wandering around like a lost soul. The house is so quiet, and it is not like Zac was a noisy dog, but he just had so much presence. He was always at my side. He is coming home tomorrow, we had him cremated. I don't think I can scatter him, it will be a comfort to have something of him here.

I am going to get another baby, but even that is so confusing, there are so many breeders out there. I spent all last night online, looking at websites, and you want to make sure you pick the right one. I was lucky with Zac, he wasn't a show stopper or anything like that, but he was a sweetheart. Just hope I make the right choice.

Anyway I am prattling, so thanks for listening.

Janet

[wildmoor]

Hi Janet
i didnt notice on your other post you are from Oldham aswell. sorry to hear of your loss of Zak, I to lost a dog in 2005 to the same type of cancer (hemangiosarcoma) I couldnt be without and bought another 2, a pup and a 10mths old one, although not replacing the dog as they are all different with their personalities it helped me with the grieving process as I was once again training and busy with the dogs. Time will heal, it may not seem like it now but just remember the good times you had with Zac.
pam

[LOVEGSD]

Hi Janet

I just thought I'd see how you're coping after your loss as you haven't posted on the forum for a bit and to be honest I'm unsure how to email you directly

I hope you're ok!

Lynn
x

Hi Janet,
Hope you are OK. It does take time but I understand what you are going through.
Love and best wishes,

Kirstie.

[LOVEGSD]

Oh Hammy, that post bought a tear to my eye....that's a lovely message.